每次仰着不让它掉可它不听
[mĕi cì yăng zhe bù ràng tā diào kĕ tā bù tīng]
Translated literally it would mean 'each time looking up without letting it fall but it doesn't listen'. This metaphorically reflects personal struggle to suppress tears, showing inner resilience against sorrow, yet also expressing frustration because emotional expression cannot be entirely controlled at times.