如果可以懦弱我也不想坚强
[rú guŏ kĕ yĭ nuò ruò wŏ yĕ bù xiăng jiān qiáng]
The meaning here lies in preferring weakness if they had the choice because enduring toughness was not something voluntarily chosen. This indicates a vulnerability underneath any show of strength; the user would rather not have had to become strong.