我恨我自己的自甘堕落
[wŏ hèn wŏ zì jĭ de zì gān duò luò]
'I hate my own self-sabotage' expresses remorse and dissatisfaction over one's tendency to indulge in detrimental behaviors, reflecting on negative patterns of behavior one wants to change but struggles with, often stemming from feelings of inadequacy or despair.