你赏我一枪帮我加强心防你赐我离殇让我牢固心墙
[nĭ shăng wŏ yī qiāng bāng wŏ jiā qiáng xīn fáng nĭ cì wŏ lí shāng ràng wŏ láo gù xīn qiáng]
This is metaphorical language for experiencing pain or betrayal ('you rewarded me with a gunshot, helping to reinforce my defenses') which leads to stronger emotional walls or barriers against others, indicating that such hardships have hardened the user's heart.