老天都在笑我还能装多久
[lăo tiān dōu zài xiào wŏ hái néng zhuāng duō jiŭ]
Meaning 'Even heaven laughs at me, how much longer can I pretend?' this nickname conveys feelings of vulnerability, despair, or feeling misunderstood. Suggesting a sense of being ridiculed even by the universe itself or having difficulties maintaining a facade, facing hardships, and questioning one's strength or ability to carry on under duress.