很痛苦很无助很孤独很想哭不能怒不能诉不能输不能哭
[hĕn tòng kŭ hĕn wú zhù hĕn gū dú hĕn xiăng kū bù néng nù bù néng sù bù néng shū bù néng kū]
This indicates immense inner turmoil - feeling painful, helpless, isolated with the urge to weep but restrained from expressing emotions due to societal or personal pressures.