该死的心动该死的软弱
[gāi sĭ de xīn dòng gāi sĭ de ruăn ruò]
'The damn heartthrob and damn weakness,' expressing internal conflicts about feelings toward someone or something. There is attraction but also a sense of vulnerability and powerlessness that one feels ashamed of. It hints at both the excitement and frustration caused by sudden crushes or weaknesses.