由我在病态荒凉里孤独致死
[yóu wŏ zài bìng tài huāng liáng lĭ gū dú zhì sĭ]
To lead to one's own demise alone in sickening desolation. This suggests an internal world filled with deep-seated sadness and emotional voids that have driven someone towards dark self-isolation and possible thoughts of self-destruction.