要么死要么活而我半死半活
        
            [yào me sĭ yào me huó ér wŏ bàn sĭ bàn huó]
        
        
            This indicates an undecided or ambiguous state between extreme opposites like ‘life’ and ‘death’. The netizen could be implying feelings of apathy or being stuck in limbo regarding personal circumstances.