想要给你最初的依赖转身发现你已不在了
[xiăng yào jĭ nĭ zuì chū de yī lài zhuăn shēn fā xiàn nĭ yĭ bù zài le]
The meaning is close to 'Wanting to give you my initial dependence but turning around only to find you gone.' Reflecting feelings of loss, yearning, and regret after an important departure.