我愿溺海身亡然后消失不见我愿久居深海之后走向死亡
[wŏ yuàn nì hăi shēn wáng rán hòu xiāo shī bù jiàn wŏ yuàn jiŭ jū shēn hăi zhī hòu zŏu xiàng sĭ wáng]
The phrase speaks to a desire for self-destruction in a dramatic way - drowning in the ocean and then disappearing, or willing to live in deep waters till it results in death.