我拼了命假装自己不在乎我拼了命假装自己很幸福
[wŏ pīn le mìng jiă zhuāng zì jĭ bù zài hū wŏ pīn le mìng jiă zhuāng zì jĭ hĕn xìng fú]
Translated as 'I try my best to pretend that I don't care / I try my best to pretend that I am very happy'. It conveys deep inner pain and unwillingness where one tries their hardest to hide true feelings behind false appearances. A very emotionally heavy and touching username.