最初的暧昧最后的牵挂
[zuì chū de ài mèi zuì hòu de qiān guà]
This username expresses a journey in a relationship: it started with an uncertain, somewhat secretive attraction (最初的暧昧), but ended up being a deep attachment or longing (最后的牵挂). It reflects on lost love and the lasting memories one holds of someone important. '暧昧' means flirtation or ambiguous feelings, while '牵挂' conveys the feeling of caring and worry deeply for another person.