欲仙欲死
[yù xiān yù sĭ]
'欲仙欲死' roughly translates to 'yearning until one feels like dying'. This name can represent an extreme state of unfulfilled longing or desire, where one experiences intense emotions as if on the brink between heaven ('仙 (immortal)') and hell ('死 (death)'). It conveys passionate yet unattainable wishes or fantasies.