想哭却哭不出来想笑却笑不出来
[xiăng kū què kū bù chū lái xiăng xiào què xiào bù chū lái]
'想哭却哭不出来想笑却笑不出来' represents an extremely conflicted state. The user can't cry when they need to and similarly can’t laugh even when they feel happy inside. It's usually used to describe feelings that one cannot fully express their emotion.