我愿花落千年而后沉溺永远我愿溺水而亡然后消失不见
[wŏ yuàn huā luò qiān nián ér hòu chén nì yŏng yuăn wŏ yuàn nì shuĭ ér wáng rán hòu xiāo shī bù jiàn]
This deeply emotional username conveys the longing for permanent disappearance, where the speaker expresses a desire to fade away over time ('wishing to wither for a thousand years') or vanish abruptly ('wishing to drown and vanish'). It suggests intense longing for anonymity or escape from life.