我有病忘不了你放不过自己
[wŏ yŏu bìng wàng bù le nĭ fàng bù guò zì jĭ]
In literal meaning, it is 'I am sick and can't forget you, I cannot let myself go'. The user seems to have deep unrequited feelings or past regrets, and these memories haunt them so that they are unable to forgive themselves and move on.