我以为我可以笑着原谅
[wŏ yĭ wéi wŏ kĕ yĭ xiào zhe yuán liàng]
This username conveys the idea that someone thought they could smile and forgive easily. However, there's a tinge of sarcasm or helplessness as if this isn't actually true. It reflects an inner conflict between wanting to be magnanimous and the reality of one's own emotional struggle.