我想我只能自己苟活终老
[wŏ xiăng wŏ zhĭ néng zì jĭ gŏu huó zhōng lăo]
This username reflects a sense of despair and solitude. The person seems to have given up on finding companionship or happiness and resigns themselves to live alone ('just barely surviving till old age'). It indicates feelings of helplessness and a lack of hope for the future.