我说过自己绝不会哭但眼泪还是忍藏不住
[wŏ shuō guò zì jĭ jué bù huì kū dàn yăn lèi hái shì rĕn zàng bù zhù]
The meaning is 'I said I would never cry, but the tears just couldn't be held back.' This indicates an emotional vulnerability despite having a strong desire to remain resilient. The user expresses feelings of defeat against their own emotions.