我始终学不会控制我的呼吸
[wŏ shĭ zhōng xué bù huì kòng zhì wŏ de hū xī]
This username expresses the idea of losing oneself or being overwhelmed by strong emotions that make it difficult to 'keep calm'. It suggests a lack of control and emotional intensity. Perhaps, this user wants to convey a state of emotional turbulence or unpredictability.