我怕我内心荒芜留不住想要
[wŏ pà wŏ nèi xīn huāng wú liú bù zhù xiăng yào]
Expressing concerns about losing things desired due to one's own spiritual barrenness, insecurity, or lack of ability. It implies fears of not being able to maintain or attract good things because of feeling insufficient within or fearing the loss of someone/something significant.