我恨我不恨你却依旧怀念你
[wŏ hèn wŏ bù hèn nĭ què yī jiù huái niàn nĭ]
'I Hate Myself Not You but Still Miss You.' In this context, the user wants to communicate that although there may have been negative outcomes from a relationship or an experience involving someone, their hate is directed at themselves, rather than the other person, while still feeling nostalgic for that past connection.