十年戒马心孤独
[shí nián jiè mă xīn gū dú]
The net name '十年戒马心孤独' literally means 'After ten years of restraint, my heart still feels lonely.' It implies a long-lasting emotional restraint or suppression, which might be followed by the lingering feeling of loneliness. The person perhaps tried to live in a certain way for a decade and still could not get rid of the loneliness deep inside his/her heart.