若只为愧疚宁愿从未拥有
[ruò zhĭ wéi kuì jiù níng yuàn cóng wèi yōng yŏu]
Means 'If just because of guilt, I'd rather never had.' The name implies the speaker reflects regretfully on an experience where the outcome led to remorse. Rather than carry feelings of shame or regret, the person would prefer it had never occurred. Reflects complex emotions around guilt and choice.