其实笑着哭最痛
[qí shí xiào zhe kū zuì tòng]
'Qi Shi Xiao Zhuo Ku Zui Tong' means 'In fact, laughing while crying hurts most.' Often this name suggests deep emotional pain but having the mask or pretense of being happy outwardly to hide one's sorrows. Thus showing a very profound and complex internal conflict within oneself.