待我心死再去回忆
[dài wŏ xīn sĭ zài qù huí yì]
Translated as 'Only Recall after I Die (emotionally)', it shows a strong sense of heartbreak and despair. It suggests that the person doesn't wish to look back or cherish past experiences or memories, especially if these bring about pain or grief until they emotionally 'pass away,' indicating the depth of their suffering and desire to put an end to certain emotional states.