踩着高跟鞋跳舞的小丑
[căi zhe gāo gēn xié tiào wŭ de xiăo chŏu]
Refers to oneself as the joker who puts in effort (like dancing in high heels) and appears funny doing it, indicating making efforts while facing difficulties and ridicule still maintains humor. Or it may imply trying hard under challenging conditions that might not bring desirable results, highlighting self-satisfaction amidst failure and hardship.